I have become convinced that I am that stupid sheep I keep reading about in scripture. Sadly, this was a conclusion that I came to rather easily – merely through a surface-look on my life. My husband would probably be happy to confirm this truth.
Let me explain. Over these last few months, I have been blessed to have some great time of communion with the Lord. When I spend time in the Word, the Holy Spirit speaks and I am filled up. When I spend time in prayer, I feel His presence. If you asked me, “Sarah, do you trust God with all your heart?” I would answer “Yes!” But, my actions and thoughts speak something altogether different.
I still fret over the details of life. I pray and still I worry. I “give” the Lord the desires of my heart; yet, my thoughts are still anxious. As L.B. Cowman wrote in Streams in the Desert “Why do I run to this person or that person, when God is so near and will hear my faintest call? Why do I sit down to plot my own course and make my own plans? Why don’t I immediately place myself and my burdens on the Lord? Straight ahead is the best way to run, so why don’t I run directly to the living God?”
As I write this, I still can't explain why I do it. Oh, if only this sanctification process was immediate! I look forward to the day when my faith is sight. I must learn to trust and obey now. Trust and obey. No questions, no worries. Just trust and obey. God either is who the Bible says He is or He is not. No in between. His ways are perfect. His timing is perfect. His plans for us are perfect. Therefore, I must trust and obey. Walk where He leads, completely trusting because His motives are perfect.
“My situation is urgent, and I cannot see how I will ever be delivered. Yet this is not my concern, for He who made the promise will find a way to keep it. My part is simply to obey His commands, not to direct His ways. I am His servant, not His advisor. I call upon Him and He will deliver me.” Charles H. Spurgeon
Gulp! Lord, make this true in my life that I would trust, not advise. That I would obey, not direct Your ways. Advising and directing the Lord – what a silly thought, right? But I am guilty of this very sin. Giving things to Him, yet still holding on. Praying my will, my desire – rather than His will be done. Trusting, yet still scheming. Stupid sheep.
Thank you Lord for Your patience while you make my rough places smooth!
Let me explain. Over these last few months, I have been blessed to have some great time of communion with the Lord. When I spend time in the Word, the Holy Spirit speaks and I am filled up. When I spend time in prayer, I feel His presence. If you asked me, “Sarah, do you trust God with all your heart?” I would answer “Yes!” But, my actions and thoughts speak something altogether different.
I still fret over the details of life. I pray and still I worry. I “give” the Lord the desires of my heart; yet, my thoughts are still anxious. As L.B. Cowman wrote in Streams in the Desert “Why do I run to this person or that person, when God is so near and will hear my faintest call? Why do I sit down to plot my own course and make my own plans? Why don’t I immediately place myself and my burdens on the Lord? Straight ahead is the best way to run, so why don’t I run directly to the living God?”
As I write this, I still can't explain why I do it. Oh, if only this sanctification process was immediate! I look forward to the day when my faith is sight. I must learn to trust and obey now. Trust and obey. No questions, no worries. Just trust and obey. God either is who the Bible says He is or He is not. No in between. His ways are perfect. His timing is perfect. His plans for us are perfect. Therefore, I must trust and obey. Walk where He leads, completely trusting because His motives are perfect.
“My situation is urgent, and I cannot see how I will ever be delivered. Yet this is not my concern, for He who made the promise will find a way to keep it. My part is simply to obey His commands, not to direct His ways. I am His servant, not His advisor. I call upon Him and He will deliver me.” Charles H. Spurgeon
Gulp! Lord, make this true in my life that I would trust, not advise. That I would obey, not direct Your ways. Advising and directing the Lord – what a silly thought, right? But I am guilty of this very sin. Giving things to Him, yet still holding on. Praying my will, my desire – rather than His will be done. Trusting, yet still scheming. Stupid sheep.
Thank you Lord for Your patience while you make my rough places smooth!
**These pictures of compliments of my dear sheep, Laura. This picture was taken of us at our last Bible study meeting! :)
1 comments:
Sarah, what a very inspirational writing! I hope all is well. We started blog to keep our family and friends updated on our baby project, if that's what u want to call it.
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