**News and Prayer Update**

Well, I spoke with Jackie from Cigna and they are not going to pay for the HSG, like they said they would. For whatever reason, I'm not really upset about this. She did acknowledge that the notes on my account did say that they advised me that it would in fact be covered. So, she suggested that we go through the formal appeals process -- and we will. We're obviously praying that everything is covered, but if it isn't I know God will provide. Good news is that the appeals process has to be done in writing! Perfect. I can best express things through writing.

In other news, I am soon to start three months of clomid. I charted for two months and just as I suspected, I ovulate some months and not others. I have some mixed emotions about being on it. I want to because it will make my body do was it's supposed to. However, I was on this one month in January of '08 and had the worst hot flashes at night. I literally got about three or four hours of sleep a night. Not good for someone who gets about eight to ten a night. But, I'll take the good with the bad.

I have recently been battling with a bit of a negative attitude in prayer. Meaning, sometimes when I pray about the clomid working and God bringing us a baby I immediately think "even if it works I'm sure we won't get pregnant." This is a bad thing to do and I hate this about me! I need to believe that God is able to do immeasurably more than I can ask or imagine! But, this is an act of the will. Faith is a choice...that frankly I'm not always choosing.

Ashly and I recently met up with her friend Becca for lunch and talked about this very thing. I found Becca through Ashly's blog and was totally blessed by her story, the fact that she was real and ultimately her faith. I told Ashly how blessed I was by it and that I would love to meet up with her at some point. She too has experienced infertility first hand and it was a blessing to sit and talk to her. She gave the best medical advice, but what was more encouraging was her cheering us on to bigger faith! She said with every bit of bad or sobering news (like "you'll never get pregnant" or "even if you do, you won't make it full-term") from their doctors she would say "No, I serve a mighty God and He can do this!" Wow! But she agreed this was a choice. So faith I will choose!

If you too are experiencing infertility, it is so good to talk to others who are going through it. She also brought her sweet blessing, Grant. This was super comforting to hold a physical blessing from God! This baby defied all the odds and is such a witness to God's power. Thanks Becca for meeting up with us!

**By the way, scroll down and see our finished Vegas post.**