Where are we going?

I was talking to my friend yesterday, who is also dealing with infertility, and we were saying, "this would be SO much easier if I could just know that after we go through all of this -- we'll have a baby!" Then we both couldn't help but laugh.

Wouldn't all of life, in some situations, be so much easier if we could know that the outcome would be exactly what we want, pictured and prayed for?!

I feel like that child in the backseat every five minutes, "God, where are we going? ... Are we there yet? ... I want to get out! ... Where are we going??" I was reading Streams in the Desert this morning and it was about this very thing. I had to share it.

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By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. (Hebrews 11:8)

Abraham, "did not know where he was going" -- it simply was enough for him to know he went with God. He did not lean as much on the promises as he did on the Promiser. And he did not look at the difficulties of his circumstances but looked to His King -- the eternal, limitless, invisible, wise and only God -- who had reached down from His throne to direct his path and who would certainly prove Himself.

O glorious faith! Your works and possibilities are these: contentment to set sail with orders still sealed, due to unwavering confidence in the wisdom of the Lord High Admiral; and a willingness to get up, leave everything, and follow Christ, because the joyful assurance that earth's best does not compare with heaven's least. F.B. Meyer

In no way is it enough to set out cheerfully with God on any venture of faith. You must be willing to take your ideas of what the journey will be like and tear them into tiny pieces, for nothing on the itinerary will as you expect.

Your Guide will not keep to any beaten path. He will lead you through ways you would never have dreamed your eyes would see. He knows no fear, and He expects you to fear nothing while He is with you.

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Is that profound or what? That Abraham was something else! He went even though he did not know where he was going... whoa! If only I could walk by that kind of faith! Mine is more like a shuffle by faith and there have even been times when I'm pulled by faith.

"You must be willing to take your ideas of what the journey will be like and tear them into tiny pieces, for nothing on the itinerary will as you expect."

I'm going to have to think on that for a while before it fully sinks into action. I wish I could turn the planning part of me off. I believe it would make this experience much easier!

"He knows no fear, and He expects you to fear nothing while He is with you."

This could prove harder than it seems -- because He's always with me!

Father, thank You that You are always with me. I love you but I guess not perfectly (big surprise!) because You say perfect love casts out fear. Cause me to fear less and less as I tear up my itinerary and love You more perfectly. Give me Abraham's faith -- to walk with such HUGE faith without even knowing where we're going! I do trust You -- but this road is hard, my feet are weary of the walk and it feels as though the sun is scorching me to the bone. I'm going to be honest, I hate this road. However, I can find something I can be thankful for -- You revealing a little more of Yourself along the way. I seriously could not do this if You didn't show me You. I have to see You in this! Thank You that Your mercies are new each day and that Your love endures my whining and complaining! I'm such a child. Create in me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me. You can change my outlook without changing my circumstances and I beg for a new outlook. Forgive my envy and lust for things I don't have. Give me eyes to see what You want to show me and ears to hear Your sweet whispers. I do love you!